Flying Over England

February 10, 2018 by Heather Corker in Travel, Life

I'm flying over England. I can see the fields below. Green fields in uneven blocks across the countryside. As I look down, my heart aches.

I remember that flight, when I first moved, and the woman sitting next to me pointed down and said, "look, there's your new home."

At that point I felt sick. Felt that, maybe, I'd made the wrong choice. I was anxious.

But now, now I look down and wonder if I made the wrong choice moving back to America. Maybe staying in New York was a mistake. Perhaps my heart would still be in tact, perhaps my career in a different place, my faith- still solid. Or, perhaps not.

A Reflection: Poetry, Crying and Summer in the City

March 12, 2017 by Heather Corker

I was going through old journals and blogs and came across this post from May 2013. Reading through it, I realized it is as potent to my life now - now four years into living in New York City - as it was in 2013 when I was only one month in. As a soft launch to my new blog, I wanted to begin with tales of a new year, new goals and a new 'me', but the below somehow feels more appropriate; to begin with a look back - only to realize that while so much has changed not too much has. I'm still that girl - whether 25 or 30 - trying to figure it out. And living here still sometimes doesn't feel real and it is sometimes full of so much joy and very often so much pain.

Notes. To self.

January 09, 2014 by Heather Rene

A look at 22 year old Heather's thoughts

Drink life through a straw.

December 28, 2013 by Heather Rene

The yearly reflection is upon us. Winter is no longer coming, it has arrived. And with these cold dark months comes the perfect time to review the year we are leaving behind.

9 months to becoming a New Yorker

November 24, 2013 by Heather Rene

Things that happen in New York...

The Practice of Confidence.

November 22, 2013 by Heather Rene

As happens in America - or indeed anywhere, but particularly within these 50 States - a friend of a friend knows someone who does something or owns something which equals free fun for all of their acquaintances, acquaintances...

New York in Autumn

November 03, 2013 by Heather Rene

The merits of living in New York City is that life is often, or can potentially be, just like the movies. Not lovey dovey movies - in New York the reality is that most love never lasts. But like the YOLO movies, the ones with epic parties, beautiful city scenery, the chance meetings with strangers that change your life, the celebrity...

A Wanderer's Heart.

September 26, 2013 by Heather Rene

It is not enough to simply wander through a city and feel inspired by its lights, cafes or the dreams of others. Walking through a city is not experiencing it. It is a watered down taste of a place - a flavor, but a weak one. One must actually dive in, take time and space.

America the Beautiful

July 11, 2013 by Heather Rene

I've been out of the country for 5 years - my first Fourth of July back in the USA did not disappoint.

Summer's in Heat

June 26, 2013 by Heather Rene

June took me back to London. The sensation of flying over the rolling green hills, through the grey clouds and drizzle and landing at London Heathrow was like a homecoming parade. Home.

On...life and other important things

May 27, 2013 by Heather Rene

Life rolls on...

Perfect nights for poetry, crying and summer in the city

May 16, 2013 by Heather Rene

New York. Oh New York. Being here so often still doesn't feel real. Like at any moment I might wake up and, having left Neverland behind, be back in the real world of London fog and mild summers. But the dream lives on.

To Love

April 29, 2013 by Heather Rene

love that in one city block you can witness every human emotion - laughter, crying, anger, bitterness, and love, young love and old.

Walking on the wrong side of the street

April 23, 2013 by Heather Rene

New York is a lot like London. No one who lives here is from here. Whether they are immigrants from another country, or simply immigrants from another state, we are all trying to live, survive and thrive in New York. Which is of some comfort as I learn to make my own way through this big city.

New York - Part 1

April 18, 2013 by Heather Rene

New York. It's dirty, expensive, loud and busy. Full of pretense and yet so raw. A city with layers of history and yet, it is modernity on which it operates; out with the old and in with the new. Fitting, I suppose, given it's name and provenance. New York - a new start, in a new place, as true 300 years ago as it is today.